书城外语魅力英文ⅲ:不爱也是一种爱
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第12章 放弃是为了更好地爱 (4)

Beth could not help but smile. Her mother is and will always be her best friend.

Jake sat in his hotel the school rented for him. School of law. He loved going overseas for everything. But he missed being with Beth. That hurt him the most.

Spending the lonely nights in the hotel made him think of how much it would hurt to spend the rest of his life without her in it.

Getting up off his bed he went into the bathroom. Watching his reflection in the mirror, all he could think about was Beth. He would leave Thursday, and get there Friday night.

Turning off the light he jumped into the cold bed. On a coffee table near his bed rested a frame with them in it. It was taken at a beach about two years ago. It was the best time of their lives.

It was Thursday morning and Beth waited for Jake’s morning phone call. He would call at eight—it was ten.

Beth got out of bed and got her favorite blue tank top. She took off her shirt and screamed at the top of her lungs.

“What? What?” Her mother came rushing into her room. Staring at her naked daughter she saw the lump of her . “Does it hurt?”

Beth could only say “No.” Looking at the lump, she cried in pain.

“Let’s get you to the doctor.”

“Ok, let me get dressed.”

Shutting the door behind her, the room became silent. Shaking she put on her shirt, and ran out into the living room.

“Mom, where are my blue shorts?”

“In the dresser, second drawer.”

Finishing getting dressed she hopped into her car. Her red mustang drove like a baby.

They waited for the doctor to come in. Beth could not begin to think she had cancer. As her mind drifted off her cell phone rang.

“Hello?” Her heart skipped a beat, hoping it was Jake.

“Hey, how are you?” He asked out of breath.

“Could be better. Why didn’t you call me this morning?”

“Sorry, school got a hold of me today.”

“Why are you out of breath?” Looking stunned she stared at her mother.

“I’m so sorry, he’ll call back.” Her mother gave Beth a hug.

The doctor came in, and greeted his self. “Hello. I’m Kevin Baker.” He smiled while examining her.

A few minutes went by while they waited for an answer. “Yeah, its cancer, it looks like it’s been there for a while.”

Jake sat in the waiting room, unsure about going in or not. He just waited, five minutes passed as he walked towards a CNA. “Hi. My girl friend is seeing a doctor right now; can I have the room number?”

She checked her files. “What’s her name?”

“Beth Foley.” Jake looked around the waiting room.

“Jake!” Beth said surprised. She gave him a hug. He held her tightly, never wanting to let go of his angel. “I missed you so very much. I left last night; I could not stand being without you again.” He kissed her lips.

“I missed you, too.” Beth answered back.

“Let’s go home.” Kay hugged Jake.

Once they got home Jake grabbed her by the hand and sat her down.

“Beth, I loved you all my life. Ever since I saw you on the monkey bars, saying you were going to marry me. I knew I loved you. I can’t spend another lonely night at home without you being there. You make my life complete. Will you marry me, Beth?”

Tears of pain flooded her blue eyes. “I can’t marry you.” She shook her head, “I just can’t.”

Getting up, her mother tried stopping her. But Beth closed the door behind her. The door that she hid behind, hoping one day she could wake up and the cancer could be gone. And Jake can have a wonderful life with her. Forever. How can he love someone that is going to die from cancer?

A week passed, message after message, Beth would not answer. Her mother would answer the phone every time he called. Jake had no idea what was going on. He needed to talk to Beth right away, and holding his phone calls was not going to help one bit. It couldn’t help the canyon deep whole in his heart that was full of pain.

He had to see her, whether she liked it or not. He had to tell her he didn’t care what happened to her, he still wanted to be with her. Getting dressed in his blue jean shorts, and his favorite white shirt she loved to see him in. He got into his car.

Reaching her door he looked in the driveway, her mother’s car was not there. Now she would have to face him, and not hide behind her mother. He knocked.

“Coming.” Beth answered, she opened the door. She wore a red robe with her name on it. She got from her grandma a few years ago.

“Please let me in, we need to talk.”

She could not be rude. They needed to talk alright, about how he was going to lose his only love to cancer. How was he going to take that? She opened the door wider, and he slowly walked in.

“I hate how you can’t talk to me. I hate that we can’t be together. Don’t you understand I love you?” He ran his hand through his brown hair frustrated. “You can tell me anything you need to. I’m here for you today, tomorrow, and forever. And you know this. Now what is wrong?”

He cradled her on the leather couch. All her fears and pain went away for that moment. Nothing seemed to matter, but him and her, together, forever. A silent tear ran down her right cheek and landed on Jake’s shoulder.

“I love you, that’s why I have to let you go.” She wiped her tear. Jake hated to see her so upset; she was usually a strong willed person. Her coming down like this was not usual, and it freaked him out.

“Let me go? Come on, what’s wrong?” Jake held her tighter, giving her a light kiss on her cheek.

“I have cancer. I found out a few weeks ago. I don’t want to marry you, and have you get hurt…”

He stopped her words with the sweetest kiss man could make. All her doubts and fears slowly drifted away like the wind. Everything fell into place; they found the love they thought they had missed. They will forever be in love’s arms.

贝丝对她爱慕已久的杰克说:“总有一天我会嫁给你。”她穿着最喜欢的带玩具熊的蓝色衬衣。四岁的她,蓝色的眼睛在阳光下闪闪发亮。

杰克说:“不,不行,你还是一个小女孩呢。”

加利福尼亚午后的微风吹拂着他浅棕色的头发。他从单杠上跳下来,一路笑着跑回了教室。

贝丝独自坐在那里,满脸迷惑,不知所措。她坐在高高的单杠上哭起来。她未来的丈夫怎么就这样走开了呢?

她一定要得到他,但该怎么做呢?“我不会让他离开我!不会!绝不会!”

15年后:

“我也爱你,杰克。”挂断电话之后,她发现母亲在笑。“怎么了?”

母亲坐在黑皮沙发上说道:“他什么时候从法国回来啊?他在那里待了有一阵子了。”整栋房子都是印度风格的设计,墙上挂满了各种不同的捕梦网。母亲的母亲是纯正的切罗基印第安血统。在贝丝八岁时她就去世了。

“他现在学业很繁重,可能要到这周六才行。”