Further Up And Further In
进深与攀登
“Know， O Warlike Kings，” said Emeth， “and you， O ladies whose beauty illuminates the universe， that I am Emeth the seventh son of Harpha Tarkaan of the city of Tehishbaan， Westward beyond the desert. I came lately into Narnia with nine and twenty others under the command of Rishda Tarkaan Now when I first heard that we should march upon Narnia I rejoiced， for I had heard many things of your Land and desired greatly to meet you in battle. But when I found that we were to go in disguised as merchants （which is a shameful dress for a warrior and the son of a Tarkaan） and to work by lies and trickery， then my joy departed from me. And most of all when I found we must wait upon a monkey， and when it began to be said that Tash and Aslan were one， then the world became dark in my eyes. For always since I was a boy I have served Tash and my great desire was to know more of him and， if it might be， to look upon his face. But the name of Aslan was hateful to me.
“And， as you have seen， we were called together outside the straw- roofed hovel， night after night， and the fire was kindled， and the Ape brought forth out of the hovel something upon four legs that I could not well see. And the people and the Beasts bowed down and did honour to it. But I thought， the Tarkaan is deceived by the Ape： forthis thing that comes out of the stable is neither Tash nor any other god. But when I watched the Tarkaan’s face， and marked every word that he said to the Monkey， then I changed my mind： for I saw that the Tarkaan did not believe in it himself. And then I understood that he did not believe in Tash at all： for if he had， how could he dare to mock him？When I understood this， a great rage fell upon me and I wondered that the true Tash did not strike down both the Monkey and the Tarkaan with fire from heaven. Nevertheless I hid my anger and held my tongue and waited to see how it would end. But last night， as some of you know， the Monkey brought not forth the yellow thing but said that all who desired to look upon Tashlan-for so they mixed the two words to pretend that they were all one-must pass one by one into the hovel. And I said to myself， Doubtless this is some other deception. But when the Cat had gone in and had come out again in a madness of terror， then I said to myself， Surely the true Tash， whom they called on without knowledge or belief， has now come among us， and will avenge himself. And though my heart was turned into water inside me because of the greatness and terror of Tash， yet my desire was stronger than my fear， and I put force upon my knees to stay them from trembling， and
on my teeth that they should not chatter， and resolved to look upon the face of Tash though he should slay me. So I offered myself to go into the hovel； and the Tarkaan， though unwillingly， let me go.
“As soon as I had gone in at the door， the first wonder was that I found myself in this great sunlight （as we all are now） though the inside of the hovel had looked dark from outside. But I had not time to marvel at this， for immediately I was forced to fight for my head against one of our own men. As soon as I saw him I understood that the Monkey and the Tarkaan had set him there to slay any who came in if he were not in their secrets： so that this man also was a liar and a mocker and no true servant of Tash. I had the better will to fight him； and having slain the villain， I cast him out behind me through the door.
“Then I looked about me and saw the sky and the wide lands， and smelled the sweetness. And I said， By the Gods， this is a pleasantplace： it may be that I am come into the country of Tash. And I began to journey into the strange country and to seek him.
“So I went over much grass and many flowers and among all kinds of wholesome and delectable trees till lo！ in a narrow place between two rocks there came to meet me a great Lion. The speed of him was like the ostrich， and his size was an elephant‘s； his hair was like pure gold and the brightness of his eyes like gold that is liquid in the furnace. He was more terrible than the Flaming Mountain of Lagour， and in beauty he surpassed all that is in the world even as the rose in bloom surpasses the dust of the desert.
“Then I fell at his feet and thought， Surely this is the hour of death， for the Lion （who is worthy of all honour） will know that I have served Tash all my days and not him. Nevertheless， it is better to see the Lion and die than to be Tisroc of the world and live and not to have seen him. But the Glorious One bent down his golden head and touched my forehead with his tongue and said， ’Son， thou art welcome.‘ But I said， ’Alas， Lord， I am no son of thine but the servant of Tash.‘ He answered， ’Child， all the service thou hast done to Tash， I account as service done to me.‘ Then by reasons of my great desire for wisdom and understanding， I overcame my fear and questioned the Glorious One and said， ’Lord， is it then true， as the Ape said， that thou and Tash are one？‘ The Lion growled so that the earth shook （but his wrath was not against me） and said， ’It is false. Not because he and I are one， but because we are opposites-I take to me the services which thou hastdone to him. For I and he are of such different kinds that no service
which is vile can be done to me， and none which is not vile can be done to him. Therefore， if any man swear by Tash and keep his oath for the oath‘s sake， it is by me that he has truly sworn， though he know it not， and it is I who reward him. And if any man do a cruelty in my name， then， though he says the name Aslan， it is Tash whom he serves and by Tash his deed is accepted. Dost thou understand， Child？， I said， ’Lord， thou knowest how much I understand.‘ But I said also （for the truth constrained me）， ’Yet I have been seeking Tash all my days.‘ ’Beloved，‘ said the Glorious One， ’unless thy desire had been for methou wouldst not have sought so long and so truly. For all find what they truly seek.